Does money really bring happiness?

Can money really bring happiness?

To be honest I would of said yes, the dreams of winning big on the lottery sounded like I would have never ending happiness all the things you could afford to do! No worries give my children the finest things.

But in the real world of debt no money and bankruptcy I’ve learnt one major thing money is not needed for happiness.

Easter holidays, two children and bankrupt… one week in and what have I found ..Happiness!

Ive had to think hard on how I could keep the kids busy without spending hardly any money and still keep within our allowance for the month.

We’ve had picnics outside, we wrapped up and went for a lovely walk along the river we sat and chucked stones and learnt my lads the Joy’s of skimming pebbles over the water.

We’ve baked cakes and biscuits, explored our local area! Turns out we have this amazing wood which has the most awesome rope swing!

And today it snowed… yes snow in April is a tad unexpected but we had fun!

And what have I learnt in this week…we have made more memories and more happiness by not having to spend a penny outside budget.

There was no soft play just so I could have 5 minutes peace or chucking money just to do things that I thought made my kids happy.

Exploring and spending time with me is all they need they dont care what it is we do aslong as it still feels like an adventure.

Today I actually felt like I maybe winning this mum thing!

The day I got approved for bankruptcy!

Okay so this isn’t by far not a proud moment or statement! But it is a statement and a moment in its self.

The relief on opening that email and seeing the words approved.

Relief was the first thing I felt. No more worries and the ifs and buts of how we were going to make it through another long month. It wasn’t living it was surviving I was surviving in the pond of dept that’s I had flooded my self into.

These next few days I filled out paper work had a telephone interview so someone who didn’t know could know and try to find out how I got into this situation.

My reason was a relationship breakdown 21 year old and newly single with twins 6 months old. I was stupid I wouldn’t to prove I could stand on my own two feet. But one loan led to another and then to another and before long inwas in too deep to ask for help.

I didn’t want anyone knowing infect ashamed so it turns out for 5 years I had kept all these feelings to myself no one knew how much debt I was in and I didn’t want to tell anyone either to be honest.

All I could think whilst doing the paperwork and conversations was why didn’t you just ask for help from the start?